From Irvine to China
There is this undeniable peace that overcomes me when it all of a sudden clicks again that Jesus Christ is real. And that everything that happened really happened. I was listening to one of Pastor Chi’s old podcast sermons from 2008 on my drive from Irvine to China (Temple City) and he was talking about what the disciples must have felt when they saw Jesus come back to them after they had already seen him die on the cross. That got me thinking about present day. I had a patient who died in front of my eyes even after we did everything from CPR, Epi, defib, etc. The doctors called time of death, we placed a white sheet over him, and that was the end of this man’s life. I picture in my head what it would be like if that same patient came walking out to the nurse station the next night, alive and well. I know for a fact I would most likely piss/shit in my pants first and then just pass out. It’s INCREDIBLE this really happened with Jesus. My mind cannot fully grasp the immensity of this happening. And I am glad I cannot. God is so grand beyond anything I can think or imagine. He would be the only one to think of crazy stuff like this. And understanding that this crazy stuff was all done so that He could be reunited with me, to declare me as His precious child, His princess, to live in me, and abundantly give me His empowering grace..oh gosh there’s so much. All because He loves. It makes me cry with tears of gratitude, joy, and I guess the other word is sheer awe that this all really happened. That this is all truly real. The Holy Spirit that brought Him back to life from death is the same Holy Spirit that is in me right this moment. God, you are overwhelming. And God, you are so faithful. Everything you say, is. That’s crazy. Lord, continue to remind this forgetful mind of who You really are so I know who I am. Maaan, I wanna dance right now. Thank you Father. You are here. Thank you that you are here. Thank you so so much for Jesus Christ. Amen.